Finding Spiritual Direction

Spiritual Retreat Meditation

It was over ten years ago now that I was personally in a bad space. I thought at the time that my life had ended.

It had in a way. I had seperated from my wife of 19 years, divorce imminent, I had resigned from my job of 12 years feeling burnt out and had no idea what I was going to do for work, and I had discovered, to my chagrin, that many “friends”, some of whom were very close, had bailled out on me. I was no longer useful to them or theirs, nor was my new status as a single mature soon to be divorved male fit into many of my previous social groups. I wouldn’t say I was a mess but rather numb, directionless, with not even a holding pattern. Patterns, well that is a subject for another time.

Needing to step out and away from the familiar, not that anything that was familiar was now open to me, I bought an airline ticket, packed up “my share” of the joint possesions, got on an airplane and left. To where? I was off and running, something that many of us do when our world is shattered and our reference points no longer available to us.

But where to run to? I don’t think I even thought about what I would do when I got there. The airline ticket had a direction, west, I just started and then I got off. Bangkok. Knowing and liking the city I also knew it wasn’t where I need to be right then so I picked an island and went there, figuring I would spend some beach time and snorkel. Where I washed up was Koh Pha Ngam, the party island now known for full moon parties. It’s off the island of Koh Samui, and both are pretty places.

Koh Pha Ngam beach

My view whilst reconnecting at Koh Pha Ngam

On an isolated beach of Koh Pha Ngam I found a small resort, a retreat, where the long tailled boat I had hailed dropped me off in chest high water to walk ashore bag held high. There I settled, my sanctuary. It became my personal spiritual retreat. A place where for 10 days out of 14 I arose, had some breakfast, went back to my bungalow and meditated. Initially I was just trying to stop and breathe. Allow my body and mind to join without thinking about things. I was awake most nights, listening to the rustle in the jungle. I was awake most days, staring at the oh so beautiful beach a few short steps away.

My time meditating and alone slowly brought me to a space where I could meet and talk with others staying at the bungalows or passing through. There is something about islands, particularly small ones, where if you stand still long enough and are open to listening with more than your ears you may meet some amazing people. I was and I did. People from many different parts of the world, people from many different spiritual paths.

I decided that I would like some help with discovering me, I needed a direction. The help in finding that direction came in the form of one of those people who washed up on the island of Koh Pha Ngam. They told me, rather reminded me, about Findhorn, a spiritual community, education centre and eco village near Inverness in Scotland.  Direction chosen i once again boarded an air plane and headed for Scotland.

The Findhorn website says about “Experience Week” “…it’s seven days that can change your life and your world”. It did bring that change to mine.

Through my expereince at Findhorn I was able to open further my inner listening and connection with all life.  it  lead me indirectly to meet  Dorien Israel, a beautiful soul who facilitates the Inner Journeys’ Empower Your Spirit Retreat.

If you are at a point in your own spiritual journey where you are open to a very personal opportunity to reconnect with your life on all levels perhaps a spirutal retreat with Dorien is for you.

Click to go to Empower Your Spirit Retreat information. 



    May 9, 2012

    Beautifully written Greg, you have a talent for writing and I wanted the story to continue – to know what happened, to know what unfolded for you. Thanks for sharing this piece

    Write your story – it will sell.


  2. Rose Lukjanenko
    May 9, 2012

    From those of us that know you, even that little bit that you let us know, think very highly of how you handled you inner journey at that stressful time. May the gods and angels continue to guide you.
    Always love. Rose